Tuesday, October 18, 2011

one handy thing about having the same due date as with abbey, is that it makes it easier to track down blog post from the last pregnancy.

at about this point when pregnant with abbey i wrote this post. i remember being very emotional and tearing up on pretty much a daily basis when i thought about the change that was coming to us so soon. i was absolutely right in that having a child changed our relationship and marriage in just about every way. while it has brought us together and made us a stronger couple in many ways, it has always proven to add a whole new layer of work to marriage that we really hadn't experienced prior to it.

i've found myself getting emotional again lately only this time its more about becoming a mom to two children and losing the time of being a mom to only abbey. it's hard to explain, and maybe some parents don't feel this way when expecting their 2nd child, but there is part of me that is sad to say goodbye to the days of just abbey and i. i'm excited that she will be getting a sibling and i know they will (eventually-hopefully!) have so much fun together. i'm excited to have a sweet little baby again and watch him go through all the stages we've seen abbey go through over the past two years.

at the same time, i lay awake almost every night worrying about how well i will love two completely different children. worrying about how to be a mom to a boy. worrying about how abbey will adjust to sharing attention. worrying about how i will not be able to physically pick up my girl or tuck her into bed for weeks after bringing tucker home. worrying that my worry about abbey will take away from bonding with tucker.

so it's safe to say i've spent some time crying over these things lately and honestly, not near enough time praying over them. it's so easy to let myself get so overwhelmed with my worries that i forget to pray about them.

"6 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." phil 4:6-7 esv


Leah said...

I didn't know you had the exact same due date! That is totally awesome.

Your feelings are totally normal. Sometimes I think the anticipation of it is the worst part.

elias and hope said...

That verse is the verse that has been repeated over and over in my mind and out of my mouth for the past 3 days.
I will say that going from 0 to 3 was pretty overwhelming, but one thing that I've observed about these kids in the past couple of days is that need for community, even in siblings. I'll be praying for you guys and for sweet Abbey. I'm so excited to meet Tucker!

elias and hope said...

that was actually just hope...not elias and hope:)