i have come to realize that up until just the last few years i hadn't really believed that i was all that much of a sinner. i was the good girl-i did all the right things and none of the bad things. so although i knew that i couldn't get to heaven on my own "goodness" (ephesians 2:8), i don't think i fully grasped that i too was a person with a messy, selfish and sinful heart. there is something about realizing that and my desperate need for Christ to save me from my sin on a daily basis that makes the gift of salvation all the more real and all the more precious.
what spurred these thoughts at 7:30am on a friday? this article.
"Nevertheless, I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will receive me to glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."