"the steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every
morning; great is Your faithfulness."
i have been struggling with abbey lately. i don't know when it started but i realized yesterday that i couldn't remember the last time when i'd had day with her that didn't just feel HARD all.day.long. she has been boycotting naps more and more lately and when that happens the days go down hill fast. she is cranky because she still needs the sleep and i'm cranky because i still need somewhat of a break during the day. she has been pushing boundaries more and more and i feel like all i do is discipline her all day long. it's exhausting. it's relentless. it's hard for me to find joy in my relationship with her when we get to that place.
|"look mommy, i'm like a baby!"|
i'm so thankful for today. i'm so thankful for how gracious God is to me when i am so often selfish and undeserving. i'm so thankful that He hasn't abandoned me with these two little humans to figure out on my own. but instead He is continually using them to refine the ugliness of my heart.