over the past couple of months i've started to notice a shift in my way of thinking. i can't really pin-point when it started to happen but all of the sudden i'm realizing i'm not analyzing all my food intake, mentally adding up calories all day or spending an hour agonizing over whether to have a cookie or not. i still make it a goal to choose healthy foods when i have the option and to only eat when i'm hungry (which, lets be honest, is a struggle!) but it doesn't control me like it use to. if i eat enchiladas for dinner one night or decide to have 2 cupcakes on a random occasion just because they taste really really good-i don't feel like a disgusting failure and i don't feel the need to deprive and berate myself the following the day. i am still a few pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight and i'm really okay with that. i am realizing that this new found freedom is so much more enjoyable than wearing my old favorite pair of jeans ever was. i'm sure i'll still have days when i feel down about my weight but i'm hoping, really hoping, that i'm finally getting free from the grip food has always had on my life.