all i know to do when i start to feel the panic rise up in me is to go back to trusting God. i know it sounds so sunday schooly and churchy but honestly, it is the ONLY thing getting me through everyday without breaking down, declaring i'm post-poning school and begging gregg to get his job back here in austin. it doesn't help that everyone i tell my plans to looks at me like i just told them i'm planning to pilot a freaking space ship to mars. seriously people, where's the support! i know i CANNOT be the ONLY person in the world to have a baby and go to school at the same time. stop looking at me like i am braving some new unfounded territory.
anyway, as churchy as it may sound, i know that this is the direction God is leading us in right now. i know that if this wasn't the absolute right time for this baby to be coming-it would be coming right now. so, that's all i can do to reassure myself, well that, and remember that i seriously have the best, most supportive and capable person to go through the upcoming 5 months with.